So I had hoped there was a chance that maybe our breakup wouldn’t “take.” But after an email from C. today, I guess I was wrong and I am officially single. She basically said there were unnamed aspects to our relationship that made her not able to imagine a future together. Sigh. She was also kinda mad that I had blogged about her conversation — I have since edited it to remove some semi-personal things about her … maybe I wasn’t being too considerate at the time, I was in a weird emotional state, but it certainly not something where I was trying to be hurtful or anything like that. I guess I felt that she pseudonymous here, and that I could use the emotional support. Self-expression is a wonderful thing — and I still really don’t understand why she broke up with me out of the blue. Writing stuff here and getting feedback helps me figure things out, I think. But I’ll take care not to post anything private about her or too detailed about our relationship from now on.
Anyway… soooo not looking forward to rejoining the dating market, finding someone knew, explaining myself to them. (Meanwhile, S.’s boyfriend has posted a picture on his blog of himself wearing a Vassar cap she got while visiting my alma mater with me… )
But there’ll be a one-day limit to my self-pity … tomorrow is a new day.
Sorry to hear it…
No need to limit self-pity. You are entitled to whatever emotions/feelings you want.
I’m late to the party. Sorry it didn’t work out.
This won’t help now, but if she feels that way it’s good to know it now and not in say three years… a situation I found myself in. It would have been very easy for her to think “oh god, now we’re living together, I can’t do it now, let me give it time” even though the end result would be inevitable. People get into MARRIAGES because they’re not brave enough to call it quits and a divorce or being left at the alter is a lot more painful than a breakup.
I hope that you moved into an apt you can afford by yourself! Then I’d be really quite pissed if I were you!!
Derek–
If you are going to delete my comments, please have the courtesty to write and let me know.
I will just cease reading.
Mark
I didn’t delete your comment dude … you are looking at the wrong post.